Sunday 21 July 2013

Wisdom of a raving lunatic..

A Raven watches all 
For each angel a Raven, 
For each man an angel, 
For each man a Raven! 

An evening walk. 
I the garden lies forbidden fruit, 
Behind pastures where ghouls lightly sleep. 
Through valleys the labrynth turns,, 
Twisting through ages in time, forbidding wanton feet 
From wandering the timeless retreat. 
Towers as surreal as dreams proudly proclaim 
Defiant truths to the thin air of terrifying heights, 
Carrying contemplating minds upward 
To the great and fiery infinities of imagination. 
Pastel colored memories welcome us 
To familiar lands, the very terrain of dreams. 
Dreams ripen, dreams rot 
And what remains is our lot? 

The valley of crosses it bears your name 
For everyonce you have died and thence been born again. 
In icy caverns flames burn throwing shadow 
Like soot upon the wall. Your hair 
Like cobwebs, your fleshless face screaming 
" Is this all, is this all we came for?" 
We've seen all the ancient altars, we've seen 
Stars turn their magnificent arcs, Infinities 
At the corners of lifeless eyes blinded 
By these dark roads that promised light 
And we've dreamt the dream that broke 
Into our consciousness like streams of continuity 
Fostering the madness, tempting us toward darker corners. 

I burn these books tonight, these rabid books 
That still amell of promises, still tempt the embers 
To burn brighter, like fallen stars on ashen earth. 
A new God has risen, A new God has fallen, 
Robed like priets we drink of the fountain 
And save our liveries for the sultry evenings 
When logic has fallen apart and we stare 
Like raven with broken wings into the abyss 
Of being. Tortured imagination seeks 
Lost in a dream of its own making. 
Seeking the semblances amidst those brocades 
Of truth lined up at shop windows. 
Is it too much to yearn, too much to turn around

Tuesday 16 July 2013

Life changes its ways.

I cannot believe I am back.I AM BACK !!
I really cannot think about anything to write I have been trying to think of something to do and then I realize that OMG all I wanted to in my life was to write and then I remembered that I have a blog in which I used to write everything I felt.
I am lost. I feel sick( I actually am) and I am losing confidence day by day. I feel lonely. How fast life changes its ways I cannot seem to keep a track with it. I wasted entire one year of my life for achieving my ambition yet I am nowhere, people are way ahead of me. I am losing myself.I feel so sad. I am waiting for 20th of July to see what my fate is. I know nobody reads my blog anymore but I want to still keep writing. I am now writing for myself as a diary and not begging people to read my blog.

Yet I somehow I believe even after all those drawbacks and mistakes that I will be there, finally winning the race with a confident smile on my face and a victory trophy is waiting for me.
I love myself(lol not the other way round)

I am the best.. 20th july here i come dmer..............